i’ve got soul

9 12 2008

I’m not sure about new music. Actually, I am. The majority of it sucks. It’s got no soul, no drive. It’s a bunch of poppy teen angst rolled up into a highly produced package and marketed to teeny boppers who will pay whatever they are told for the music they are told to listen to. It’s not music you can drive down the highway screaming after a breakup. Its not music you can blast at a rally. Its not even music you can see in concert. Its processed, like the artists that make it and the producers that produce it. Simply put, its shit.

My brother and I had a lengthy conversation tonight on the way home from a Modern Subject rehearsal. The topic – where has the real music gone? Gone are the days of raw rock ‘n roll, of gut wrenching guitars and vocals that even the best person in your college vocal ensemble couldn’t wail if they were on acid. No today’s music is toned – its mediated – its controlled from a sterile room by a producer with $1000 bills in his pocket. If it can be done on synth, do it on synth. If it can be faked, fake it. If it can be cleaned up with cutting and pasting and a shitload of reverb, then do it in post. God forbid we let musicians be musicians and portray music the way its meant to be portrayed – open, honest, raw, gutsy, and untamed.

What happened to the music of the generation? Previous youth had The Beatles, The Who, The Doors, The Stones, Dylan, U2, hell, even Oasis. But where’s the music of THIS generation? Where’s our protest songs? We have the economy going to shit, a black president coming into power, worldwide terrorist turmoil, an environmental meltdown, and a vast majority who don’t give a flying f**k. WHAT IS THERE NOT TO PROTEST? Yet the only voice I hear is a pretentious, abnoxious rapper named Kanye West screaming at me that his music about “screwing bitches” and “beatin’ hoes” is somehow the voice of my generation. No thanks you arrogant asshole. I want MY music back. I want music with soul, music that keeps me up at night. I want to believe so much in a song that I feel it could change the world. I want music for a revolution.

Pop music makes me sick. It really does. I rarely if ever listen to the radio – it depresses me. The music awards was a friggin circus this year. Everyone could have gotten everyone else’s award and everyone knew that no one deserved any of it. The bands and artists of this year probably won’t be here next, nor will their music, which thank God, fades away quicker than they do. I swear, if I heard a teenager singing Britney Spears in 30 years I would crap my pants. It just won’t happen. And its not just that she sucks, or that she’s drama, or that her claim to fame is her cleavage and not her music. It’s all of that…combined – and more. That’s why she won’t last. And neither will any of these other fly by night, built by Sony wonder-acts. They’re around to make a quick buck and the gone, meanwhile a whole generation sits there and has to pick between Kanye West and Panic at the Disco to represent them to the world.

Music isn’t about life anymore. Its not about struggles, or pitfalls, the world, happenings…hell, even women. It’s about personal drama and how you feel about it. You don’t hear an “Under My Thumb” anymore, a “Talking ‘Bout My Generation,” even a “Wonderwall.” You hear who some guy screwed and how he feels about it. Maybe its me, but I don’t give a shit. I need more. I need rock. Rock ‘n roll is a mentality, a character, it’s even a swagger. But its not just a type of music – its a type of life. A life that wants things raw…how they’re meant to be. Unpolished. Unproduced. Like you just heard a new band playing in their garage and you’re so into it you park in the drive way kind of raw. That’s when talent comes through. It’s not when you throw a crappy singer through 40 different pitch processors until you get a clean note, its when a singer is so freaking good that a pitch processer wigs out and makes it sound worse.

I long for a Dylan – a writer for the people. A writer that isn’t afraid to stand in front of the most powerful person in the world, and say “Guess what? I wrote a song for you. It’s called “Go to Hell, Asshole!” And just when you think they couldn’t possibly have the metal to go further….they strap on a guitar and sing the first chorus for them…in front of 15,000 fans. That’s who I want…not some spandex-clad bimbo telling a group of 20,000 horny freshman that she’ll be a slave for them.

Music has sold its soul to the devil for a 23 song album and a 3 minute video. It’s flooded our iPods with instructions how to think, how to act, what to buy, when to piss, and when to roll over and die. And its everywhere. MTV doesn’t play music anymore…neither does VH1. You gotta dig way up into the 400 channels to find Paladia, and hope they’re not playing that AC/DC concert rerun. You can’t even find good music anymore.

My generation wants its music back. No. Scratch that. We want our music for the first time. We want to be so emotionally involved with a song that we tell people to piss off while we listen to the album again – for the 5th time. We need artists like The Strokes, The Kooks, and Delta Spirit to completely overtake the charts and not to be confined by some half-assed Indie radio station that plays a poppy track for the sake of profiling. Then we need emerging artists to hear these bands, and say, “I wanna say that too….but louder!” That is where it comes from, from the drive, the need, yea, the unquenchable thirst to take a thought, contemplate it until it burns a hole in your brain, and scream it out the sunroof on the 405 freeway at 1am……and then record it to 2 inch tape.

I may be dreaming….or rather foreshadowing, as I’ve yet to see it happen….but I have hope. I have hope that music can be saved. I believe that if enough people experience real music, real rock….not this Fall Out Boy disco rock obsession sweeping the charts-but real, unadulterated rock, that something will click. Something will set off a bomb in these modern day poets. That they’ll turn their attention away from their closet of despare, and outward toward the world that is crying out for representation. And on that day, we will have our Dylan, our Jagger, our Lennon…until then, well, there’s always records….





the times they are a changing

5 11 2008

Most of my friends didn’t vote for McCain – they voted against Obama. The funny thing is, all those compassionate conservatives that were so convinced McCain was going to take the election, are now talking about packing their bags for Canada (as if Canada was somehow less socialist than Obama…boggles the mind).

Their fears are rooted in rumors, lies, and mostly misinterpretation spread by the failed McCain camp in an attempt to encourage Obamaphobia. He’s a terrorist, a communist, he kills babies, he wants gays to take over, he’ll raise my taxes, he’ll steal my guns….etc, etc, etc. The thing is, I find it hard to believe that ANY one man can achieve these feared accomplishments – especially in today’s day and age. The presidency is the most watched office in the land. The system of checks and balances has 200+ fail-safes in senators and congressmen, and the world stage is evermore focused on America. Obama will hardly have room to breathe, much less steal my 12 gauge. People will argue that Bush did alot of damage – and I agree, but unfortunately much of Bush’s damage was voted for by congress, so pass the plate of shame.

No, Obama won’t be perfect. But I don’t fear him. I won’t pack my bags, or build a bunker. I’ll welcome the change he preaches, and should he fail, I’ll show up at my precinct in 2012 to vote for another person to fear….hmm, I wonder if Alaska’s own Caribou Barbie will run again?





dependence

22 08 2008

I’m realizing more and more recently that I don’t know how to be a Christian. I think it has to do with this social and religious deconstruction that I’m studying right now. I’m starting to see that all the things I had ever thought were part of being a believer are just fluff, and I haven’t ever really delved into the real meat of things.

I’m currenting reading The Irresistable Revolution by Shane Claibourne. In it, he speaks about fulfilling the Sermon on the Mount and living a Christian life that is radically different than mainstream Christianity. While some may associate what he says with a Democratic form of society, I have to ask myself, is that bad at all? Taking care of orphans and widows, caring for the poor and the sick – that seems to be what Christ has told us to do. Telling someone they need to be saved to go to heaven yet offering them no assistance here on earth neither represents Christ well, nor gives them any reason to worship a God who smiles on their plight. So I ask myself, do I really practice a form of Christianity that my Maker would be proud of? I have to admit, I don’t. I realize that Christ didn’t save us to get us to attend church every sunday, yet the standard Western view of Christianity says just that.

As I dive deeper into the confusion of what real Christianity is, I have to look to the heros of our faith – Luther, Augustine, St. Francis of Assisi. Their words seem to echo, “living is preaching” not “preach to everyone you talk to.” Some may say this is passive, I’m starting to believe this is the most active thing we can do. If the faith we hold close does nothing for anyone then what is the point of holding it close at all? Would it not preach more to hand a blanket to a homeless person than telling them they should accept Christ? Would showing compassion on a struggling addict not go further than heaping judgement on his already-acknowledged sin? I’m sadly starting to see what we’ve become, and seeing that allows me to understand why the church is so uneffective – our selfishness reigns supreme – we’ve taken Christ off the thrown and put ourselves there, each waiting for our precious turn in the glory seat so that we can receive warm-fuzzies from all those around us.What a stark comparison to the selflessness of the one we claim to worship.

I’ll continue to pursue a purpose that is acceptable to my Father….





creativity and frustration

21 08 2008

Modern Subject is in the studio right now. It’s kicking our butts. There’s SO much time that goes into producing a quality album and so much work to be done to prepare. We spent months in pre-production and I felt like we needed months more. Things are coming together nicely, but there’s always that point at which you step back and say “is this really going to work?” Tonight we hit that point. The answer is of course, yes, but good Lord – no wonder the music industry is so hard to stay in…the minute you let up there’s 500 other bands waiting to take your spot. Oh well…we press on.





mind, music, art and dylan

31 07 2008

Yesterday I started watching the movie “I’m not there”. It’s indirectly a movie about the life and music of one of the most brilliant artists of all time – Bob Dylan

Dylan’s gift in music (while some would argue against his vocal ability) are second to none, and he was/is truly a troubadour of a generation seething with hate, pain, and protest, yet hope and love. Something they said in a press conference in the movie really stuck with me though. During the phase in which Dylan was “going electric” a reporter asked him, “some people say that you’ve given up writing protest songs. Is that true?” Dylan’s response was, “everything I write is protesting against something.” Another report asked him, “are you worried that some of your old fans won’t relate to your new music?” He said, “I just write, man. You can relate or not, but I’m just writing. I’m not a poet, I’m just a trapeze swinger playing the game for my own mind.”

In a weird way I completely related to this. Art is art, and is created as a release for the artist, not as a pleasure for the viewer/listener. As John Mayer would say, “has anyone ever changed their mind from paint on a sign?” An opinion is expressed because it needs to be expressed, because it begs to be released. Whether a “protest song,” a work of art, or even a sign. It’s more than an invitation to accept a belief, its a internal scream of allegiance, whether you agree or not. In other words, while a song might get someone thinking, the song isn’t going to change anyone’s mind. Dylan realized this, and hence set out to write songs that defined a generation, rather than represented them. He spoke for them, rather than about them.

I tend to believe that this is whole goal of music. It’s not made to take a stand, its made to shout an opinion. That’s why its art. Art can be interpreted, disagreed with, but not ignored. You can love it or hate it, but you can’t claim it’s not there. To me, thats the highest form of music, really. The release of being able to write for writing’s sake. Not something “radio-friendly” or “marketable” but whatever comes out as a result of the swinging trapeze.

“If we’re to protest, let us first protest our own mind.”





late night

29 07 2008

Late night at the Key Club. Steel Panther was amazing. Wouldn’t mind going back every monday.





free from myself

27 07 2008

This morning I’m reminded of a Garth Brooks song called “We Shall Be Free”

When the last child cries for a crust of bread,
When the last man dies for just words that he said,
When there’s shelter over the poorest head,
We shall be free

When the last thing we notice is the color of skin,
And the first thing we look for is the beauty within,
When the skies and the oceans are clean again,
Then we shall be free

We shall be free,
We shall be free,
So stand straight, walk proud,
‘Cause we shall be free

When we’re free to love anyone we choose,
When this worlds big enough for all different views,
When we’re all free to worship from our own kind of pew,
Then we shall be free

We shall be free,
We shall be free,
Have a little faith, hold out,
‘Cause we shall be free

And when money talks for the very last time,
And nobody walks a step behind,
When there’s only one race and that’s mankind,
Then we shall be free

I’m in a weird place where I’m not sure how to respond to certain things in this world. No matter my response though, I feel the lyrics represent exactly how I feel. Sometimes that’s enough.





mourning and celebration

25 07 2008

Today we mourn the loss of Dennis Riggs and celebrate his new life in eternity.

Journey well, my friend. We’ll see you on the other side.





social construction

23 07 2008

I hate social constructions. I hate everything about them. Not only are they inaccurate but they’re annoying. Who gave society the right to predetermine our thoughts on certain subjects? Who surrendered to the masses our ability to use certain words, draw certain conclusions, or make certain judgements? Not me!

Therefore, I am done. I’m going to fight social construction by making use of its self-righteous taboos. I’m starting today.





direction

17 07 2008

I try to keep politcal ramblings out of this blog – the fact of the matter is I get too passionate and hot headed to control them. So rather than ramblings, I will make a few short, pointed statements.

1. America lacks direction and will not find it in either of our current political candidates

2. John McCain will only bring more pain on America – the same pain, suffering, lack of wisdom and bigotry that we’ve dealt with for 8 years.

3. Barack Obama is an idealist with a lofty dream of “hope for America.” No matter how good of a speechmaker you are, it can’t make up for your lack of planning. Theories don’t create good policies.

4. I groan at the fate of Ron Paul and Joe Biden – the two men who could have actually brought our country out of this funk.

We lack direction – and with no direction we are doomed to wander. I relate to the children of Israel in the desert. They wandered for 40 years without knowing where they were going. They were sustained in survival, but nothing else. They were in constant fear of their enemies, but knew not how to defend themselves. They squabbled amongst themselves but never came up with solutions. They were ungrateful for what they had and whined when it was taken away from them.

How much longer must we wait until we are clear of this wilderness…..we may never know. We may never be clear. Kind of disappointing.

All you need is love. Shalom.